i dunno wat else to blog too.. nt reallie in de mood oso.. mayb coz i'm feelin a lil gastric prob.. i tink i'm sick.. i can haf nth for lunch.. when dinner cum i felt hungry n ate quite a bit.. who knows my gastric is givin mi some prob. i dunno wat ixxit but its nt pain but a weird feelin... life suddenly so sucks... but de gd thingy is i manage to get myself out of de hse on fri.. nth to b happy abt coz for tis whole week i was practically home all de way except cumin fri.. 6 days at hm... i watched numerous show.wanna know wats nice??? ask mi. =)) well actually i planned to stay hm de whole week coz results is cumin out. but i gotta make a trip back to gio to sign a letter..n my resignation will take immediate effect. dun haf to serve 2 weeks notice.. i'm glad.. simply becoz i heard lotsa changes over dere i dun tink i wanna go back either..

had a hair cut today.. slightly shorter.. i'm lazy handlin wif long hair.. nid to tie n all.. n most imptly skool startin le. so i get it cut now if its too short or ugly i got 2 weeks to make it up.haha..

well... u told mi u read my blog... but i reallie hope u wld comfort mi when u know i aint feelin gd... but all u did was juz askin mi if i tink u dun trust mi... thanks for siding mi.. but i reallie hope to hear something more frm u.... hmm... yup liddat lo... mayb i'm sensitive or mayb i'm juz nt feelin alrite..i dun like wats happenin tis 2 days... when i msg u, i gotta wait for sometime for ur reply.. even when u told mi u doin nth n u reply immediately. but de lag is in mins.. and when i on de phone wif u, u can game n tok to mi, even if it doesnt nid ur concentration when i said couple of times or i said u go play first den tok to mi..u could reallie go for ur game den mi...game rather den gf??? hahas y dun u ask de game to b ur gf instead?? dun u haf de thot of stop playin for a moment to tok to mi??? tell mi if i'm too sensitive or otherwise gif mi an explanation for all tis...i dun feel de care neither do i feel de concern... even when i told u i aint feelin well, all u cld tell mi is slp early.. r we driftin apart?? or wat???even when u tell mi u care, i juz felt.................


skool officially starts in 2 weeks time... am i happy, excited or i juz dun feel a thing??? =(

.....i will b fine in no time.....

our first neo print taken.. i mean onli de 2 of us in de pic.. haha

results r cumin out real soon. i'm gettin more n more worried... hai. chat wif my sis over at msn ytd..

sis: results out already??
mi: haven le.. scare le.. if fail how??
sis: no choice lo.. u pray lo
mi: now pray oso no use liao lo
sis: ya lo... nvm wait out liao den see how..

tis is my sis. haha nt reallie bothered by it. hahas tink she is used to my lousy results.. haha sad=(

i wanted to blog bout a frenz but i guess i din know how to start n erm.. i dun reallie wanna tok bout it liao.. i felt nt bein appreciated. but watever it is.. everything is simply to late to do any adjusment so let it be ba. haha... i tried my best but since she aint interested den suan le lo. dun see y i shld carry on further. hahas

anyway, mayb like wat dear say " make frenz is easy but makin good frenz is hard".. those dere's some downs n lil ups.. i'm still contented wif wat i haf now ba.. a bf n my gers.. =)

i haf been skippin my meals recently.. duno wat happen oso.. juz dun haf de appetite to eat.. ixxit coz of all tis crap botherin mi or wat so ever??? i reallie dunno..juz dun feel like eat or dunno wat to eat oso.. i dun wanna starve but i duno le... feelin lethargic.. have been lyin n lazin ard restlessly.. shag n tired.. but when it cum to nite i could hardly slp.. too much in my thot?? i hope someone could lighten it up for mi. haha .. anyone willin to sacrific?? haha

oh ya i heard over de radio... in order to look radiant n fresh, we gotta haf our beauty slp frm 10pm-2am... it is de time when our skin replenishes something one la.. haha conclusion slp 10pm-2am.. haha

...sigh...

24.08.07

on de way to dear hse.....
tis is wat we do when we r bored... even when in train... haha

mi being bored....

baby justin
dear's nephew.. cute ???

he juz learnt to crawl...

my hair so messy... carryin baby justin is tirin.. my arms are still achin even til today... =)

together wif his family... hee

koko's 21st bday pics... on our way to maxwell mkt.... de girls..haha.. love u gers its us again... de guys tat made koko merlion-ed.. hahas.. evidence....hahas

sing.sang.sung

next up..... baby justin

i'm goin out today.. erm.. i mean later on. hahas. goin to enjoy myself to de fullest.. . coz i'm goin to be grounded at home on sat n sun again.. yes do u see de word again??? haha its haf been weeks or rather a mth or more tat i haf been stayin hm on sat n sun whr ppl r enjoyin their weekends out dere??? sad..... nvm lo.. better den nth.. fri is oso consider as a half weekend ba.. haha.. i'm juz tryin to make myself feelin more comfy la..

shall update more tonite when i back hm. hee... =)

i'm gettin more n more worried as days to gettin my results draw nearer... hmmm

principles of sociology
principles of accounting
introduction to business and management
introduction to economics
management mathematics
marketing

seriously, out of all tis 6 mod, none i'm confident in.. i'm so afraid i flunk my soci n econs(again).. i reallie wanna pass badly.. coz i still gotta complete another 5 mod..

if i pass all 6(highly unlikely), i nid onli 1 more yr to complete my studies.. but if i were to fail juz 1 mod( highly likely), i gotta take another 2 yrs... reason being, last yr of studies, i can onli take 5 mod or 4mod n retakes.. but i got 5 mod to clear... so de chance of 2 more yrs of studies is so damn ultra high.. sad and depressed.. each time dad ask mi if my results is out.. my heart juz skip a beat... i'm worried ultra worried..

i choose my timetable for cumin skool reopen liao..

corporate finance
marcoeconomics
management science method
financial reporting
management accounting

so by hook or by crook i muz definitely pass poa n econs.. coz dere's pre requisite to de mod i choose for..

in any case i fail econs. i gotta drop cf and macro.. but de gd thing is i can take financial management instead of cf... its similar..

but if i fail my poa.. i'm doom.. coz i gotta drop all n left wif msm.. n i gotta re select my mod.. n its muz b theory kind such tat dere's no pre requisite..

haiz.. i'm juz damn tense up la.. sometimes i wonder if i took de rite path for business study... coz i reallie find no interest in them sometimes. juz like studyin for de sake n of coz satisfyin my dad's wish.. hmm.. i juz hope to clear all asap n out to de workin society..


.....lost.....

22.08.07

celebration of koko 21st bday

lets see wat haf i done...

had lunch at aunty's hse downstair.. and of coz playin wif my nieces... haha was feedin my niece longan, but she insisted it is a banana... hmm i corrected her but she still insist den okies lo. u win.. haha..

after which i went hm n slack a while, and i decided to gaf my baby a lil surprise.. since i culd afford a lil time out.. hee. told him i gg to bath n all.. but instead i hurried out of my hse got a cab to his place... n i went up. took a lift til de 9th floor instead of 8th.. because of tat lousy neighbour's dog. reason being dat dog barks each time it sees stranger or mi.. zzz so i decided to take to de 9th floor such tat tat irritatin dog does sees mi.. hee n i took a pic of dear's doors wif his unit no. n send him an mms.. haha surprise.. he came out n look for mi.. yea... my surprise was foolproof he said..

after meetin up wif him......... its de girls turn to celebrate koko's belated 21st bday.. hee

before i head down.. xuan called.. i asked whr is she den when she told mi she reached liao i was so surprise. haha so early.. i tink 15mins before time...

conversation 1

mi: we can go bugis walk a lil.. i dun tink they will b so early ba.. haha. everytime i oso wait for them...
him: hmm okies lo.. den we go walked one round..

den when i reached tanjong pagar at 7pm sharp.. omg.. i was wrong... koko oso reach liao.. haha n she dressed so nice...

here comes
conversation 2

xuan: y u wear until so ugly...
mi: hmm u oso ma... koko tell mi go market eat..
xuan: ya lo..

conversation 3

mi: koko actually i nv anyhow dress.. my top v ex le.. cost mi $40 plus..
koko: hahas yes hor ur top vv ex..
koko: y nic nv cum??
mi: i dunno gotta call him le. so i told him he nt invited.. hahas
koko: aiyo call him cum la....


in de end, he came. yea.. i'm really glad he willin to cum all de way down.. koko explained to him say is misunderstandin. he is actually invited. haha

so we had dinner at maxwell n head over to chill at a pub called 'equator'.. hmm koko was bein bulled by pf n nic.. so in de she merlion-ed... her 21st bday wished came true.. hee.. overall, we enjoyed ourself ya.. hee.. alrite shall wait for koko to send mi de pics den i upload it ba.. hee

They are juz so cute n innocent.... how i wish i could turn back time...


kennice and darryl boy


nieces and nephews

first i wanna thank nana.. haha tellin mi de prog.. its reallie fun playin wif de pic.. hmm "collage" is de term. haha.. at least it kip mi occupied for some time.. while waitin for him to b hm.... but its a long wait... since 10pm til now 12 plus... hmm still waitin.. drop him a mms of one of de pic i did.. hope he like it.. hmm

my gers.... of coz....

mi...

him...

us....

and us again....


durin de wait ..... i finished watchin de 10pm on chn u, episode 17 of 18 jing bu jing , did some photo collage and of coz bloggin.... hmm lets see wat else i can do. hmm mayb i can listen to song n rot.... haha.. and i'm constantly checkin my hp n waitin for it to *beep*

oh ya n nt forgettin....
KOKO
HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY!!!
MAY ALL UR WISHES CUM TRUE!!!
HOW BOUT GETTIN A BF?? =)
OKIES NOW LET MI SING U A BDAY SONG OKIES?
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KOKO
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU

....WIF LOTS OF HUGS N KISSES....
no worries we will mit up real soon okies... hee..


i dunno wat to say... but i reallie misses u badly... but at times i wonder how long will all tis misses last?? i'm afraid one day all de misses starts disappearin n vanishin...

在我最黑暗脆弱的时刻
我只看见你
在我最孤单无助的时刻
我只相信你
在冷夜中听风怒吼
为什么我一直发抖
因为你没说 let's love like there's no tomorrow


hmm... wat else i gotta say le... mama tml gg for her chemo session again.. well.. i juz hope everything goes well...

i'm lookin forward to fri...

i've decided to run out on fri, but it gonna b a long wait tis week juz to mit him on a fri... our last mit up was last fri.. tat means we nt gg to mit for a week exactly.. i hope i made de rite choice.. hee... i dare nt go out more coz i'm afraid i waste my days out n missed de day koko wanna celebrate her 21st bady.. so better be safe i request 1 day first... but gers if u all wanna mit on a fri oso can.. hahas..

i sound so pathetic..... i dunno how long it gonna last... but i hope it end soon... which oso mean mama will end her sufferin soon.. yup...

i'm bored n tired... woke up at 10 plus.. coz its rainin super heavily n my parents went out wifout closin de window.. n my hse is wet.. hmm.. after which i cant get back to slp. hmm. but never the less i took a nap frm 3-530.. haha den mama wake mi up to help her bath. so okies la.. i tink i had enuf of rest...

juz a lil worried bout my baby.. haha he barely study much. hope he can do well ba.. haha n exams remind mi of my results cumin le.. doomed.. haiz. i sense danger.. hope de scoldin nt so jia lat.. n i supposed skool start i can haf a lil more time spend wif him. since he is havin hols too. hee

oh ya.. i regretted on settin tis permission thingy tat allow onli ppl i invited into my blog onli.. haiz. but nvm la.. cant b bothered much... i know my stand...

......missin you......

i'm feelin bored, lonely and left out.......

I've learnt to CHERISH.....

issue 1 : my FAMILY
my mama bought a $800 worth of health product tat could last bout a month.... hmmm... i was shock to see de amt.. furthermore, its nt 100% safe i guess... but well, no matter wat we tell mama, she oso wun listen one.. coz she told us is her frenz who oso undergo chemo recommend it to her.. so well, i told her u try for a mth see got use a not lo. if nt den dun continue.. simply becoz we dunno de exact content in de medicine so we wldnt know if it helps or will make her feel worsen.. as u know some unknown medicine can cause kidney or liver failure kind.. so ya i'm pretty worried.. however, if tis could make her feel better... y nt... she is feelin so depressed... finally, i decided to try on mama's meal tat my aunty cook... it reallie taste bland.. i gotta secretly add some salt in... i know deep in mama is sufferin much...i hope my mummy get well soon... i love my mummy...

issue 2 : my RELATIONSHIP
i reallie missed those times we spent over at taiwan.... where we leave all our burden behind n enjoy ourselves to de fullest...

on de airplane, i lied on ur shoulder n u lied on my face n dere we entered our dreamland.. or i lied on ur laps wif ur arms over mi.. i juz felt so warmth..

on de streets, u held my hands n always by my side... i guess u r a lil afraid i got lost ba.. haha.. lost sheep... and u tryin to make mi laugh whenever i'm pek cek wif de super hot weather...

in de hotel, we played wif thunder slap before we get to bed... ur snorin tat makes mi feel like kickin u down de bed... de wake up call for koko every mornin n we pushed each other to get bathe first.. n of coz de hugs, mornin n good nite kisses tat kip every thing goin...

didnt we just enjoyed ourselves??? but i'm sad to say it ended pretty fast too...

those were de good times

how about de bad???

de quarrels we haf.. now if i were to tink back. a couple is trivial n a couple is major... i agree wif wat u said bout understandin each other more each time we quarrel.. but still... we nv knew how much it affected us. de impact n all...

i'm glad somehow we dun haf to go thru those army days whr every relationship is being tested. so most prolly we save a lot of quarrels but we nv had de chance of gettin our relationship tested.. hahas contradicting ya..

sometimes i hope i get more sense of security frm u. but how?? i seriously dunno.. hahas. i dunno if i'm possessive or demandin.. mayb u can tell mi?? hahas

but smth i haf been tinkin bout.. when u told mi u still haf ur ex clothing wif u, i'm feelin okies.. but when i asked u to return it to her, i felt smth seems to b holdin u back... i know most prolly de ans i will get frm u is tat u dun wanna contact her, ur heart is wif mi or even believe it or not up to u.... but i juz couldnt stop thinkin y u still wanna kip it long for sometimes?? u miss her?? u wanna kip some of her things or even u still hold a lil feelin?? but well again, i know wat u gonna tell mi " no i got no more feelin for her... i nv wanna kip her things i even tink of throwin it...and all.." i knew wat i gonna get. but mayb its juz a feelin or de thots i haf.. mayb coz i too free to tink bout all these...

but never the less i reallie truly enjoy every single min n secs spent wif u... i nv regretted steppin into tis relationship. i jus hope it gets better....

issue 3 : my FRENZ
i love my frenz.. i love my gers... whenever i nided them..nv fail they r by my side thanks.. especially the constant concern tat kips mi feelin de care in which nt all frenz could gif.. its nth artificial.. all cums deep down.. thanks.. i guess in order to b a true frenz... wat lies beneath muz b sincere n true.... nt many could achieve.... i thot my jc frenz could b trusted somehow it was wrong... disappointed... but still.. ya...i love u girls....

17.08.07

A Blissful Day!!!

i dragged myself out of da bed at ard 11am... tired... did some laundry and swept de floor.. reason being i gg out today.. so gotta do some work before i left hm... oso helped my mama to bath first .. i hope i did my part well...


MISSION ACCOMPLISHED!!!!

plan some surprises for dear today.. since its our one day advance 5th Month ANNI celebration .. reason being yen yen tml muz b hm coz dad is gg out..

SO yen yen left hm at ard 4.15pm to do her task...
task one : call up miss clarity cafe for reservation...
task two: head down to bugis to get de movie ticket " Secret"
task three: surprise dear at funan n bring him down to miss clarity cafe for dinner....

first hicupp : reservation for miss clarity cafe is full... so yen yen gotta decide if wanna go get de tickets first. in any case de dinner is late we will missed de show at 7.20... but yen yen still decided to get de tickets first... coz yen yen feel before 6 we head to de cafe is safe coz most prolly ppl will go in for dinner at ard 6 plus 7 plus. accordin to yen yen's experience..

well.. so as expected... de cafe was empty.. and dey let us in n told us we gotta leave by 7pm.. i was damn happy coz den i'm 100% sure we will b able to make it for de movie.. hee

on my way down to bugis.. haha i was juz feelin bored in train...

At miss clarity cafe.......

we r bored while waitin for food.. hee


yea.. as u can see. its reallie empty!!!
i muz say de ambience is fine n de food is affordable...


our meal.. we were damn full couldnt even finish all. but we reallie like de dessert.. its sweet!!!

Yea.. so after dinner, we left for de movie... well i muz say Jay is cool in de movie.. i like de romance in de storyline.. its nt onli sweet but oso pure.. and certain part of de movie is touchin.. i almost teared. yea...

after movie.. headed back to dear's hse... on our way back, we managed to catch some fireworks.. haha i suppose marina bay is havin some firework festival.. yea.. nice fireworks...

overall, i enjoyed my day.. i hope u enjoyed ur day too.. hee

13 AUG 07

he came n wait for mi under my blk.. n we took a cab down to airport.. haha .. well, we were a lil late.. but nv too late. haha they haven leave de airport. haha de main attraction is nt his sis, neither is his bro in law. but his lil nephew justin. haha.. justin is cute.... he can smile laugh while playin wif u n de next min start cryin out loud... hahas kipin us all puzzled.. hee.... oh ya.. we had dinner together nearby his hse.. i manage to escape de greetin part. coz our table onli gt his mama.. phew... nice escape.. haha


on our way to de airport...

tryin to act somebody again??

last pic before i leave his hse.. haha

Been a gd girl stayin hm on both sat n sun.. i'm feelin real bored at hm.. n de show Mr Vampire 4 i'm dling is takin years la.. so damn ultra slow. haf been kipin my lappy on for hours n hours.. countless. but i still see no sign near to 100%.. onli 63%.. n it took mi like at least 3 days le.. sianz

woke up early in de mornin bout 7 plus or 8 plus...din wan to wake up so early but i wan havin terrible headache...drop my baby a msg... thot i could continued to slp n i'll get better.. but instead it gotten worse.. hmm so i drag myself out of my bed at ard 11 plus.. i felt my head burstin.. yea tat bad.. took panadol after eatin a mini bao. haha.. n moi mama offer to apply medication oil for mi.. i say no nid but she insist den okies lo. haha .. i got better after poppin de pills n medication oil. hee.. but wat din get better was.. i waited for moi baby reply frm 11plus til 2 plus tat he finally reply.. still say change his ringtone.. hmmph. but guess his hp auto off so nv hear. so nvm forgif him.. but wat even more jialat is i haf been waitin for him to ask mi how is my headache or am i feelin better.. but instead he ask mi wat i doin.. wat i doin more important meh?? hmm nvm. i dun wan say more since we juz recover frm a major quarrel.. sigh....

tml will b de first day of de lunar 7th month i guess if i'm nt wrong.. dad ask mi to accompany him to de temple to pay my grandparent respect.. hmm .. after which i guess i'm gg wif baby to de airport to pick his sis wif his family ma.. n more prolly a dinner after tat... hmm i guess i can use tis phrase now "butterflies in my stomach".. haha i'm shy la.. nt onli i gotta see his family n oso de greetin part.. i'm so scare to say " aunty eat, uncle eat" haha mayb coz my family dun haf tis practise i guess... haha.. i hope everything turn out fine den.. hahas..

i was pretty bored at hm today... so did a couple of test.. dunno how true but ya its juz a test...
i did all tis test once... nv repeated....

It's 100% Love and 0% Lust

You and your guy are truly in love, even if that spark seems to be a little dimmer.

i'm glad i score a 100% for tis... yea... reallie love u 100%.. i'm sorry for ytd quarrel... nt tat i enjoy makin u angry. mayb a lil. wanna see u blow.. rmb wat i always say? haha i did ytd.. kinda proud of it.. u exploded.. haha.. anyway ya.. sorry la.. dun so petty la okies... haha...

Your Brain is 73% Female, 27% Male

Your brain leans female You think with your heart, not your head Sweet and considerate, you are a giver But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!

oh man.. i'm onli 73% woman.. haha i'm still a lil man afterall.. haha sadded

You're Confident...Sometimes

You can seem confident when the occasion calls for it But inside you may be experiencing a bit of self doubt A little more inner confidence could take you far... And convince others that you're as confident as you try to seem

i'm confident??? am i reallie confident??? i dunno oso le.. hahas..

updates!!!!!

mama is back home.. so am i... i'm exhausted seriously...

mama's total no. of days n nites stayover at kk = 7days 6nites
yenyen's total no. of days n nites stayover at kk = 7 days 3 nites

mama wan mi stayover i cant say no oso.. but every mornin i wake up wif backache n neck ache.. and one mornin.. i woke up n found tat i gt an extra levis watch.. so instead of 1 i've gt 2.. haha

And at times when i'm bored i could onli play wif my hp.. takin pics... reason being de internet access over dere is real sucky la. kip dc-ing.. zz.. use til i pek cek... its eeyor bibiography. hahas. i like de first pic n last pic particularly. haha eeyor's ears is long enuff to tight a knot to becum a head band.hahas

And of coz yenyen's bibiography. haha its juz nt my bed.. i had a hard time tryin to get to bed.. so ya.. my self-potraits.. haha

Not forgettin bout my baby.. hahas.. sacrifice some of my restin time to mit him... de onli availble time we haf .. when i'm free.. hahahs.. i muz say tis.. de walk frm kk to his hse isnt tat near afterall... esp under de scorchin hot sun.. it was simply dreadful.. but nt tat bad wif his company.. hee.. i love seein him so focused.. but pls.. nt so focus on tv programmes can?? u can even freeze juz watchin tv.. u reallie cant multi task...

Last but nt least.... baby sent mi tis mms .. i was shock. haha its my poor rabbit wearin de ultimate thunder slap.. haha.. i miss both of them.. haha they are wif him nt wif mi...

i haf been takin alot of cabbies.. haha i gifin my $$ to all taxi driver.. hahas... i'm juz lazy la.. n when i gotta return hm early in de mornin frm kk.. its real shagged... n moi mama is like a queen now.. supervisin us in n out.. all she nid is to shout for us n she get all de help.. but i tink since she can walk she shld do certain things herself...as a form of excerisin rather den dependin so much on us... hmm.. well as her daughter i can onli do as i'm told.. i tink my freedom are rather restricted... cant go out like i wish.. i gotta arrange wif my dad. either one muz b home..tat kind. dunno how long it gonna last oso.. hmm..

i gonna missed out so much out dere.. tml i managed to get my whole day free.. so i gg to fully utilise it.. by gg to amos bday wif my gers.. n mit him after tat.. hopefully can caught fireworks... if nt den see how again.. i wanna watch jay's movie.. we shall see how ixxit again ba.. hahas

.....OPERATION WAS SUCCESSFUL... INDEED VERY SUCCESSFUL...

thanks ppl for ya concerns... hmm..

doctor showed us de pic of de ovary n womb tat is taken out.. well, sis n i din reallie understand.. but luckily aunt was dere.. doctor can understand doctor language better la. haha.. n surprisingly, bout 5 yrs ago.. one of my aunty is under de same doctor as mama... she had de same prob but of coz so much less serious..hee.. anyway, back track, doctor said de tumour is like a size of a pamelo.. hmm big big big.. hmm. yea...


he came kk to find mi.... hee... after his hair cut..dun he look like 7 up guy.. fiddo lookalike?? i know i'm mean but dun it look like??? hahas

haha so boyish look... hee.. cute...

i love his smile... hee

a proper pic...


dis ugly bear cost 100 bucks. can u believe it.. it belongs to my sis... damn ugly lo.. nt i wanna say.. somemore de tummy so big cant even sit still. haha de neck cant even support de head.. hahas lotsa complaint..

stayin over at kk tonite.. to accompany moi mama. tml will b her op.. kinda worried coz its consider as a major op. but i believe she will b fine...

brought eeyore n pooh over. .haha i'm afraid i cant slp wifout something of my own.. hee



and of coz i gt my lappy over n tis is my pathetic couch i slpin on for de nite.. zzz

thanks baby for cumin down to accompany mi ... 1230am til 130am.. thou its juz a short 1 hr. i truly appreciated it.. hee.. he gotta walk hm. hmm he said near but i'm still kinda worried. hahas..