skipped work today... accompany dad n mum to kk to get de results... but apparently dere's no result.. de doctor juz tell mama to eat so pills tml nite n get prepare for thurs chemo therapy.. well.. they even recommend mama to get wig.. wah lao la.. tink she nt sad enuff ixxit.. bish.. so ya.. my eyes juz constantly filled wif tears la... tinkin tat she is goin to undergo such pain... so dad ask mi to stay hm on fri.. but fri is xuan bday... high chance i wun b able to make it. drop koko a msg n xuan a msg.. i know she's goin to b disappointed... mi n nana couldnt make it.. but i hope u understand.. i know u will understand de.. nt tat i dun wanna go.. i deadly wanna go celebrate ur bday wif u.. coz is ur 21st.. but a part of mi keep tellin mi tat i should b stayin home takin care of my mama.. as a duty of a daughter.. since dere nth much i can do other den takin care of her n b dere when she nids mi..
To : xuan.. real sorry.. i'll treat u to a meal sometime next week or next next to compensate okie?? sorry...
i actually broke down at his hse today... juz before dinner... n juz in time his mama came knockin on de door askin us out to eat dinner...haiz.. i control la.. but still.. sad la.. i'm juz weak... so PLS GIF MI STRENGTH!!!
so sis was askin mi nt to work on thurs n pei my mama on thurs for de therapy.. i know i shld la.. afterall i'm juz a part timer... so ya tml i go back n try askin them if i cld. n probably ask them if i can dun work next week... if they say cant den most probably tenderin will b my onli solution.. my mama is still no1... n i muz say tis.. mama now weigh on 53.8kg.. she weigh herself ytd or so was like 54.5kg... she is losin weight every now n them la.. dun wan to eat la.. dunno wat to say oso.. i say wat i can liao.. everyone is so so worried for her la... but actually i'm pretty afraid tat if i go wif her on thur den if i see how torturin de session is i scare i will cry again.. i'm juz so easy n gd at cryin la.. like a water tap on n cannot turn it off... is dere anyone who actually understand my feelin???
oh ya n hor.. today at kk when went to gynea cancer section la.. n dad told mi dat de tumour in mama body is like cancer coz its simply too big. n they actually dunno de actually level of risk.. so de feelin is even more sucks when i heard tis...
To : xuan.. real sorry.. i'll treat u to a meal sometime next week or next next to compensate okie?? sorry...
i actually broke down at his hse today... juz before dinner... n juz in time his mama came knockin on de door askin us out to eat dinner...haiz.. i control la.. but still.. sad la.. i'm juz weak... so PLS GIF MI STRENGTH!!!
so sis was askin mi nt to work on thurs n pei my mama on thurs for de therapy.. i know i shld la.. afterall i'm juz a part timer... so ya tml i go back n try askin them if i cld. n probably ask them if i can dun work next week... if they say cant den most probably tenderin will b my onli solution.. my mama is still no1... n i muz say tis.. mama now weigh on 53.8kg.. she weigh herself ytd or so was like 54.5kg... she is losin weight every now n them la.. dun wan to eat la.. dunno wat to say oso.. i say wat i can liao.. everyone is so so worried for her la... but actually i'm pretty afraid tat if i go wif her on thur den if i see how torturin de session is i scare i will cry again.. i'm juz so easy n gd at cryin la.. like a water tap on n cannot turn it off... is dere anyone who actually understand my feelin???
oh ya n hor.. today at kk when went to gynea cancer section la.. n dad told mi dat de tumour in mama body is like cancer coz its simply too big. n they actually dunno de actually level of risk.. so de feelin is even more sucks when i heard tis...
sad sad
posted by yen at
11:52 PM
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