put on weight? i guess i haf.. hahas..

alrite.. my colleagues was tellin mi she gonna rom in sept.. n askin if she invite mi i will go... of coz i will la.. seein her gettin engaged. how could i missed it.. so i told her.. its so blissful.. but den she told mi tis.. its nt easy. its another phase of life.. dere's more commitment involve.. n i totally agree...so wat is commitment exactly???

com·mit·ment
–noun
1.
the act of committing.
2.
the state of being committed.
3.
the act of committing, pledging, or engaging oneself.
4.
a pledge or promise; obligation
5.
engagement; involvement

well how often do we actually commit ourselves into one.. hmm.. i tink most imptly is tat whether are u ready for it ba.. if u r nt ready.. nth counts... rite?? i hope they are ready n b xin fu... sometimes i tink.. if 2 strangers got to know each other.. n den in couple of months they got together.. and in a yr or 2, they decided to engage. hmm how much do they actually know each other... i juz tink its too soon.. like for example, sis n bro in law.. they know each other n together for like almost 9 yrs den they got married... for de 9 yrs of relationship, dere's ups n downs, deres break up n patch up.. but they knew they are de one for each other... they are stable be it in relatiobship, feelins or financially... isnt it great?? but like other cases like nic's bro.. he got to know his wife n together for like 2 yrs?? n got married they are happy as well... so am i supposed to say it depends on individual?? but for mi certainly i nid alot of assurance.. so i tink knowin each other longer would b a better choice for mi ba..

i'm a sensitive lil ger who tends to think alot.. hmm givin myself more troubles... a pessismistic but yet a lil optismisctic ger...i nv reallie like surprises.. coz seldom does de surprises surprise mi.. somehow i juz knew wats gonna happen... often, i discover secret or something tat wasnt meant for mi to know.. i nv like de feelin but still i couldnt control.. like de sayin " curiousity kills de cat".. n often i'm curious..curiousity nv fails mi.... but often de truth fails mi... sometimes i hope for white lies.. but its still lies.. nobody like lies.. but yet... i couldnt control myself.. i seldom open up to others.. i find it hard sometimes.. n i like to bottle up things in myself.. yes all by myself.. nevertheless i appreciate my gers for bein dere for mi when i nided someone to listen to my rants n complaints... thou we seldom mit up. but still we do often kip in contacts... i nided attention frm u... i wan to feel ur care so badly.. u asked mi "u dun feel it meh? " often my ans is i dunno.. coz i reallie dunno.. i couldnt find de ans for myself too..

often u lose control.. u lose ur patience n u flare.. juz like as much i lose my patience and i flare... we are both impatient la. haha...

sun meetin up wif de gers.. hope nth happen.. so can shun shun li li mit up wif them.. hee...